Day 63 - Trust

I noticed today that even if it was over 50 years ago, a deep wound from your childhood still hurts.
I noticed how talking about it with someone you trust can ease some of the pain.
I [re]noticed that trust is one of the most important aspects of my relationship with Sweetie.
We trust each other enough to venture, hand in hand, into those dark places we both like to avoid.

Feeling grateful,
Merry ME

Comments

Constance said…
Some hurts go incredibly deep, usually because they are repetitive - not from a stranger as an isolated incident, but usually from someone close to you that just keeps on making the wound and making it again, and again and again.
My empathy.

How do you learn to forgive yourself for feeling pain, even 50 years hence? Be gentle with yourself, dear Merry. Know that you deserved love, not cruelty, and the person who did this - its about their flaws, and not yours.

((hugs))
March 4, 2013 at 10:24 PM
Anonymous said…
(((HUGS))))
March 5, 2013 at 12:13 AM
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